solemn and not blue

to say that i love you is an understatement,
misrepresentation....
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solemn and not blue,
i am worn at the seams like
an aged book,
peeled, cracked, used...
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I can read myself like my favorite novel,
skim words,
skip detail,
and know innately
how to re-write
and write
to right
each and every the chapter..
the characters,
always fill the
same voids
re-named to save
lives, lies and identities...
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how did i get here?
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Again?
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i've stopped running in sneakers, cuz i'm still not as swift as my last truthful thought.
and no matter how swift i may be, i can't chase you out my mind...
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not like i want to
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what's a girl to do?
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