The Dog Whisperer

It's been a minute.. I've been soaking some things in.. Waiting for an opportunity to release them, you know?

things have become increasing hectic at my job. not that the job is bad, i'm just working with some crazy a** black women. it hurts my soul, because i, too, am a black woman. my gosh we sabotage ourselves so. the inability to get along with one another, the inability to like ourselves, in addition, to the inability to be genuinely happy for another sister, hell just another human being, at times is mad crazy and depressing. don't get me wrong, it's women of all colors, but i can only speak from a sister's perspective...

we JUST don't do a good job of recognizing our purpose, prioritizing, focusing on our individual goals, and creating a path toward achieving said goals. PERIOD. there is a piece of pie for everyone , and believe me sisters, we don't all want the same pie, nor the same size slice of pie. believe me. i love key lime. i have found few women who have ordered key lime when there were other flavors available. i liken that to opportunity.... truly.

my grand passed away september 11, 2004. i have missed her every day since her passing. i also realized that in order for me to be a product of the village i love so dearly, i must emulate the mores and norms of that village. once i stopped being angry with g.o.d. about losing her. i could see the positive. once i stopped trying to replace that village... i truly became alive. began to live.

now mind you, i'm not throwing salt or being judgemental.. just stating my truth.

the last year, i have worked diligently at being the woman i am destined to be... surrounding myself with women whom.. i'd truly like to be like, women i can learn from, women who hold secrets to life.... it doesn't matter their age, economics, socialization... the only thing i care about is how they got to this space and place in time, each did so earnestly, sometimes happily, courageously, with determination, humility and pride.....

i say this because i am fortunate to have this sisterhood... and also, because.... well...

the last few days and over the weekend, i've noticed some things that trouble me... doesn't hurt me but trouble me.. as women, how, really, how can we continue to disrespect ourselves. and it's that ongoing disrespect of self that reminds me why i stopped messing around with a couple of them in the first place. reminds me of this sister at work..

i feel sorry for her. she has so much promise, but she's terribly unhappy.. lives in a big ass house ALONE. Can never say she did anything over the weekend other than her yard, and hanging around a woman she can't hardly stand. i think their friends out of needed desperation. if she didn't have her, she probably wouldn't have anyone.

she became angry about some fcking puppies? some puppies.. in all my hateful ways i ain't never took no shit out on no animals and kids...

i mean i got women who won't speak to me to this day on some shit i don't know or care about but i will speak to their kids.. and you can always tell how low down a woman is, 'cuz her kids will take on a different attitude with you... boo, i am and will never be so important that you have to tell your kids not to speak to me... really... share that shit with an adult.

anyway... she got her pressure up because another coworker brought some puppies to work, mind you they weren't mutts.. the woman is an ellen ( like de generes). shit the adult dog had on a fcking pearl collar! she had them locked up in her cubicle area with a bed, a potty mat and some music playing so they would stay calm.. i mean you hardly knew they were there... my female co-worker (the sister) is mean as hell, a sister most don't like (including me 1/2 the month i can't stand her, the other 1/2 she's cool)... anyway she sent an e-mail REPORTING she got bit by some damn ticks... she'd only been in the office five minutes before she became aggravated with the traffic. i mean the little buggers were cute, and people kept coming over to look at them. HELL IT WAS FRIDAY (and you know people don't be trying to work on fridays)

now mind you this is the same woman who believes papadeaux's is really going some where for dinner! which explains why she didn't realize these weren't robitussin dogs (you know hood dogs that don't know nothing about the groomer or vet!) long short the dogs had to be taken to another area after she wrote an e-mail complaining about them.. she compared them to children (WHICH SHE DOES NOT HAVE!) and complained about them one day when another co-worker brought his grand child to work. just anything to be fcked up... so now every one in the office knows she's the one who complained.. blah blah blah... i wish she had good friends. good healthy female friends like mine..

anyway.. i would loan 'em out if she needed them... all but mo! i have to share her enough with tee tee as it is... ha! i don't know, tee tee is kind of funny about her associations, she might not like the chakra (i have no real idea what this is, but i tease her about it all the time) or energy... angel i wouldn't contain her if i could.. she's like a cold, infectious, but even she has her limits... and ebony, well, hell, you can look at her and tell she don't play. with that little balled up fist. hahahahahahahahaha and erica, well she just don't like needy people......