todo HE DEJADO soy desteñido memorias

... u said she would fight until
her dust settled in your tracks.
greyed my bluing skies,
pains panged and multiplied!
shattering every memory of
your face
your grace...
that space.
(to) leave me in
this place...
wHERe
numbness tastes
sweet bitter with regret - (forgetting and romanticizing)
apologies
wrapped thickly 'round our tongue(s)
like rose petals
and thorns
in honey...
gelatinously heavy!
forcing our dignity
to choke on the sticky stubbornness
of it's pride
.................
that aside...
..................
i Still love HEr..
even if it means
i crawl!
even if it means
i
walk!
even if it means
i
run!
run
back toward and into
borrowed time
charged against
mine
chasing change,
lost
and forgotten chances,
once mores
baby please
one more
and another
time!
what i
believe
/feel
should
/will
always be mine..
.................
she
running in
tripping out
of my
mind
and..
heart
...............
aNd
i Still love HEr.
i chase
the
peony scented
recollections
carelessly
aS
HEr
blood curling demons
cradle my fragile sanity..
PUSHING
me
toward the
acridness
of
self destruction.
our thoughts
slow drag
shattering
illusions of
martyrdom.
(we)
hurl
dangerously
like the
clanging of glass doors
against iron corridors
.........................
u said she would fight til the grackles
devoured the bread crumbed
salt trail
u left behind.
dry and withered -
weathered storms
we could not forecast
or avoid.
and
i mistake you for rain (droplets)
disguising and hiding (my) tears
streaking
sullen faces...
i can never wipe you away.
yEt
i want to be drenched in her.
the umbrella filled with
promises to never leave
and wait for me
lies
foolisHly
by the rEd dooR
.........................
u said u would fight
til the sun and moon morphed to
a thousand noons
mimicking midnight...
and we'd be cloaked in the sunlight
of a memory
that could have been...

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